(Vacation, Day 5)
I did, in my young 30s, manage to give up smoking cigarettes as I realized they were bad for my health and giving them up was strictly a question of will power and there would be no harmful side effect, other than an unsatisfied craving.
A decade and a half later, I managed to give up alcohol, although I was seriously concerned about the social repercussions. Indeed, there are some. I can still go to a bar, and sit there and nurse a non-alcoholic beer while the conversation flows around me, but I don’t really feel as if I’m participating. So, I don’t generally go to bars as often, at least not unless I have a specific reason for being there, which is almost never. So, it’s a lifestyle change, and it’s a trade-off. I felt, almost immediately, health benefits to not drinking, and couldn’t really go back to it now if I wanted to, which I don’t.
Now, I need to make another change, but it’s going to be much harder, because you can’t give up food entirely or you will die, so cold turkey is not an option, but I do need to reduce my intake seriously, like by over 50% probably. Yeah, that’s right, I weigh way too much. As my stomach is bigger now than ever before, I can fit more food in it, and I do.
Part of the problem is I really do enjoy good food, probably as much as I used to enjoy alcohol. Part of the problem is habit. I reach for a snack as automatically as I once reached for a cigarette. Part of the problem is the social aspect. People eat together. It’s what we do. I can stay out of bars, but not restaurants.
And tonight, I discovered the best burger place in the world. Well, it was a discovery to me at any rate, I’ve been out of the U.S. for the last ten years. Five Guys serves a great burger. Mushrooms and jalapeno peppers are standards, not extras, the fries are good, the drinks are bottomless, and you get all the peanuts you can eat, even while you are waiting for your order. My kind of place.
Afterward, we went for a lovely walk along the river, looking over the Hudson into New York, and saw a family of geese. It was a great evening, it truly was. But, I must start eating less. It is time.